The beat drops, a slow and steady baseline. Memories and melodies keep playing in my mind. I don’t want the mood to change, don’t disrupt this groove (Don’t Disrupt This Groove, The System), let this slow jam play (Slow Jam, Tenelle). There is a loud explosion in my ears. Loud ringing then sudden silence. A hard stop, to our memories and melodies. Brother, can you come back down to be with me? Bring back the days you used to love me (Bring Back the Days, Rebel Souljahz). Immense heartache rains down on me.
The pain of your loss is magnitude of overwhelming grief that sharpens with each tear that falls from my eyes and heart for you. The three of us are no longer. You left me and I lay shattered in pieces yearning for you (Love Me, Fia). Grasping and clawing at our memories and melodies! Wanting you here with me (Missing You, Mary J. Blige)!! I need you! Intense sadness rains down on me.
The beat drops, a slow and steady baseline. Memories and melodies keep playing in my mind. I don’t want the mood to change, don’t disturb this groove, let this slow jam play. Slow dancing in this burning house (Breaking Point, Leon Thomas). If it looks like you were not on my mind, I lied. Just yesterday we had forever. No warmth from the sun, no stars to light the night, no path that leads me to you. Lost, as the wind blows, after the sun sets, I scream under the bluest moon. I’d like to fly away from here (Zoom, The Commodores) instead, I shove our memories and melodies to the heavens. Can you hear me brother? Pain rains down on me.
Don’t lose faith in me brother, all I know is where we’ve been (It’s so hard to Say Goodbye, Boyz II Men) but it’s so dark. Stay by my side, until I am able to have the strength to be without you. I thought I would always be the thing that you need and now your floating away, my love lost. stuck in this paradigm (Saturn, SZA). Sending to the heavens our memories and melodies to hold for us brother. Can you do this for me? Grace rains down on me.
The beat drops, a slow and steady baseline. Memories and melodies keep playing in my mind. I don’t want the mood to change, don’t disturb this groove, let this slow jam play. Brother it’s alight, fly away to heaven, make a place for me (Telephone, Erykah Badu). Prayers now lifting our melodies and memories to you. Did you get them? Healing rains down on me.
I close my eyes, every memory I hold close, wishing you could hug me once more. It is what it is. Im never going to say goodbye, there is no good in goodbye (Good in Goodbye, Common Kings). Your light shines brighter on the other side, blinded by your beauty beyond. I see now. It was your time. I let you lead, you’re taking me to the promise land (Sun/Son, Jhene Aiko). I celebrate your life. Cherishing our memories and melodies. Your presence rains down on me.
The beat drops, a slow and steady baseline. Memories and melodies keep playing in my mind. I don’t want the mood to change, don’t disrupt this groove, let this slow jam play. You watch over us. Hues of yellow dances in and out of an orange and pink sky. Thru the buttes I catch a glimpse of heaven and there you are there. You are golden (Golden, Maoli), a forever healing scar on my heart.
Lay your hands on me Lord as I rejoice that you have gone to be with the most high to rest your soul. My God, I surrender, determined to live a life with no chains (Give Me a Clean Heart, Fred Hammond) and less pain. I send up to the heavens gratitude for a lifetime with my brother of true love, withholding nothing (Song for You, Avery Wilson). In exchange, your love surrounds me. I close my eyes once more, heaven is a place I will patiently chase, to be together with you again. There is something about this atmosphere, our destiny, I know you are waiting for me there.
A cool breeze touches my cheek, it is one of our memories; a melody you sent from heaven. Sweetness of a lifetime together. I miss you much (Miss You Much, Azeil). I can only imagine that you lay on sun rays in the day and rest in stars at night watching over your daughters beaming with pride. Now I uplift these memories and melodies to you my dear brother. Love rain down on me (Melodies from Heaven, Kirk Franklin). My dearest brother, also my son, also my side kick, also my ancestor, now my angelic DJ, don’t disrupt this groove, go ahead and let our slow jam play, until we meet again.
Chris’ Playlist:
Don’t Disrupt This Groove, The System
Slow Jam, Tenelle
Bring Back the Days, Rebel Souljahz
Love Me, Fia
Missing You, Mary J. Blige
Breaking Point, Leon Thomas
Zoom, Commodores
It’s so hard to Say Goodbye, Boyz II Men
Saturn, SZA
Telephone, Erykah Badu
Good in Goodbye, Common Kings
Sun/Son, Jhene Aiko
Golden, Maoli
Give Me a Clean Heart, Fred Hammond
Song for You, Avery Wilson
Miss You Much, Azeil
Melodies from Heaven, Kirk Franklin
BONUS TRACK: Blackberry Molasses, Mista
BONUS TRACK: All I Want is Forever, Sheldon Palmer, Johnny Suite & Maile
BONUS TRACK: Int’l Players Anthem, UGK
